Yes, I'm depressed today and hate to rain on y'alls cheerful dispositions but there is no where else to go besides a therapist (who I can't afford!). Tomorrow is my first party - an open house to kick start my business. I had an invitation list of 18 and only 2 are showing up.
I'm sure I haven't put my all into it seeing as I am dealing with some health issues (I just completed a needle biopsy of my thyroid yesterday and am waiting for surgery for another issue) but one of the reasons I decided to do this business is to break out of my shy shell and claim some control over my life and to expand past my circle of influence since I am surrounded by people deeply involved in the social service circles.
Basically, I'm admitting I am afraid I've put too much hopes on this business. Maybe I need too much from it - a change in careers, a change in environment, a change in "friends", a change in income. I am my family's sole supporter and I have been doing it the hard way for so long but I am beginning to wonder if doing something you dislike but know when the check is coming (and how much the check is) isn't so bad.
I have the Empowering Women's magazine and have read all those encouraging stories. I'd love to hear how your lives have changed - the real nuts and bolts of it. Are there any single parent consultants who are doing PC solely? Anyone making more than $40K a year? Did you start off rocky and now have a flourishing business?
Because I have been a lifelong social worker paraprofessional, I am realizing that the people who saturate my life are those whose main focus is getting enough food let alone great kitchen tools to prepare it with.
I really want something more but it is so out of my comfort zone that I am loosing the vision before I even get started.
I'm sure I haven't put my all into it seeing as I am dealing with some health issues (I just completed a needle biopsy of my thyroid yesterday and am waiting for surgery for another issue) but one of the reasons I decided to do this business is to break out of my shy shell and claim some control over my life and to expand past my circle of influence since I am surrounded by people deeply involved in the social service circles.
Basically, I'm admitting I am afraid I've put too much hopes on this business. Maybe I need too much from it - a change in careers, a change in environment, a change in "friends", a change in income. I am my family's sole supporter and I have been doing it the hard way for so long but I am beginning to wonder if doing something you dislike but know when the check is coming (and how much the check is) isn't so bad.
I have the Empowering Women's magazine and have read all those encouraging stories. I'd love to hear how your lives have changed - the real nuts and bolts of it. Are there any single parent consultants who are doing PC solely? Anyone making more than $40K a year? Did you start off rocky and now have a flourishing business?
Because I have been a lifelong social worker paraprofessional, I am realizing that the people who saturate my life are those whose main focus is getting enough food let alone great kitchen tools to prepare it with.
I really want something more but it is so out of my comfort zone that I am loosing the vision before I even get started.